Dear mommy..

Assalamu'alaikum ibu.

This is my first unsent letter to you.

You won't read this, you'll never do so,but my sentiment brought me here.

Happy belated birthday, I love you :)

Your birthday was 5 days ago,finally, I did it! I finally found pink carnations to buy. The flower that I've always thought I will give it for you someday, my bad, I only find them recently.

Soon, it will be two years after you left. There's so many things that already changed, in a good way.

We're getting closer to Allah, I'm now a changed woman, lil bro is getting mature. We're much calmer than before, even though shown his helpless belligerent rage sometimes :p

but bu, I'm still a lazy ass as always, you might cry if you're still alive, hehe.

I'm amazed that you don't throw me away at early age, because everybody knows that I made no use to you. I'm lazy,never get anything right, yet you still loved me, and for that I'm more than grateful.

You know bu, there are many times I'm still hoping for you to be alive, seems like I and lil bro couldn't get used to it yet. I miss you bu. I keep remembering when you tried to woke me up by tapping my nose, and when I opened my eyes,you said :

"you have no idea how much I love you, don't you?"

 My eyes will got teary everytime I think or talk about you.

 However we've been trying our best to be ikhlas, because we really love you. May Allah bless us continuously and may us reunited in His jannah. Aamiin.

Being born as your daughter is one of the best blessing I received from Allah SWT. Alhamdulillahirabbil'alamin.

Thank you for patiently took care of me.

May Allah bless you and forgives your mistakes.

with so much love and prayers,

your only daughter :)

 

 

 

Syafakallah for us

Assalamu'alaikum silent readers,hehe

how are you? I hope you're in the best condition of health and iman :)
Actually I'm not in a good shape now. I caught a cold,so I snot and cough for every 10 seconds or so,right now. A professor of mine said that,getting sick for so many times while pursuing your master degree,having 1000 hair-falls a day,can't sleep peacefully every night are considered normal and tolerable. She sounded exaggerating at first,but it makes sense now.

Taken from benefiko's instagram

Unbeknownst to me,my little brother is actually get sick too. He fainted in school yesterday,caused by his gastritis,then his condition got worse at night and he's hospitalized. I feel bad because I am not there and my Dad is so busy alone taking care of brother,and he's just recovered from flu couple days ago. May الله bless him continuously, aamiin.

 

Health is really a blessing. People often said that we don't know how precious it was until we get sick. Sickness is a blessing too,it's like a reminder for us that we're just nothing without our God,despite all the greatness we have,we can be really powerless when we get sick. Rasulullah SAW said that sickness is the expiation of sins,subhanallah. This is explained in some Hadith,like this one :

For every misfortune, illness, anxiety, grief, or hurt that afflicts a Muslim -even the hurt caused by the pricking of a thorn - Allah removes some of his sins. (
HR. Bukhari no. 5641)

there is more you can learn in here, here and here 

So,don't forget to be thankful for every situation,be thankful if you're healthy, be thankful and be patient if you're sick. I'll try it :) 

Anyway,please wish me and my brother a speedy recovery.

wish to meet you in the next post.

Wassalamu'alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh :)

..and her deen is complete :)

 Assalamu'alaikum :)

This is a happy post,I mean,I'm really happy everytime I think about this..
Yes,my bestfriend,former roommate,self-proclaimed sister,Mbapika is married! Alhamdulillah,subhanallah :")

 Actually,this was happened last week...
The process was started with her khitbah on June,in Jogja,which I,hanichu and bumen didn't attend.

Then, the September 7 comes so fast. I remember when I was really excited back then,saying I can't hardly wait for the date to come...and,wooosh, it comes faster than expectation~

The walimatul ursy is held in Jogjakarta, Bumen,hanichu,and me bought the train's ticket on July..
We departed from Stasiun Senen at September 5,it was 10pm and I skipped the Friday's class x)
We arrived in Jogja at 6.30am the next day, and sadly after that,I fell sp hard down the road,and get wounded,black and blue on face. It's hurt tho,but I'm really thankful it's no more than that. Alhamdulillah.

We spent the Friday walking in Malioboro and Beringharjo (of course with my wounded face!), back to hotel and visited the bride-to-be at the night.

How could I see, I was really happy yet nervous seeing her and waiting for tomorrow. I thought that my friend will getting married and will be taken away from me, I fell kinda lonely,but that only lasted for few hours,and anyway,this bride-to-be making the souvenir by herself,that's really mbapika :D

the creative bride

Here come the morning, the day! finally!

Before akad

I think she's kinda nervous

Her husband done the ijab qabul very smoothly and clearly! Subhanallah..Mbapika couldn't stop shedding tears at that time, I was crying too, the happy tears of course :")

'after-crying' face :D

The bride and groom really look good together,match in heaven. I always respect mbapika, she is really generous,mature,and very good muslimah..she was ideal woman in my eyes,and of course,her husband is good also. They met through ta'aruf process and everything goes smooth since then~

I'm really happy that she already found someone to complete her deen,lead her in the way to jannah, all praises to Allah :")


The day after,we go to Muntilan, to bumen's grandparent house. Sad thing is, it was her and my last time to meet her grandmother,because she passed away yesterday,innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un :(

We visit Borobudur,taking so many pictures.

This is embarassing but,we missed the train to back to Jakarta,we're trapped in Jogja because there's long march for festival something and late to arrive at station,lol. So,bus the only alternative left.We arrived at Jakarta on Monday morning,and I directly went to class without taking bath first x))))

It was a fun trip,seriously..
Last words, may Allah keeps the love of Mbapika and her husband forever. May Allah lead bumen's grandmother soul to jannah. May Allah bless us all.

till then..
Wassalamu'alaikum warahmatullah wabarakatuh :)

Things you can do when you're in period

I post this as a note to my self. I hope I can share it too as reminder to other Muslimah.
Taken from here and here.

1.Dzikr
Dzikr helps women to stabilize their emotion, keeping they calm and balancing their mood.

2.Sadaqah
Give and share to those who less fortunate.

3.Keeping the hygiene
Because hygiene is half of our iman.

4.Reciting Qur'an
listen to murottal and doing tadabur.

5.Learning more about Islam
Knowing more about our religion, our God and the meaning of our life.


There are more on those sites, please read it.Anyway, if you know more about this, please do share with me :)