Dear mommy..

Assalamu'alaikum ibu.

This is my first unsent letter to you.

You won't read this, you'll never do so,but my sentiment brought me here.

Happy belated birthday, I love you :)

Your birthday was 5 days ago,finally, I did it! I finally found pink carnations to buy. The flower that I've always thought I will give it for you someday, my bad, I only find them recently.

Soon, it will be two years after you left. There's so many things that already changed, in a good way.

We're getting closer to Allah, I'm now a changed woman, lil bro is getting mature. We're much calmer than before, even though shown his helpless belligerent rage sometimes :p

but bu, I'm still a lazy ass as always, you might cry if you're still alive, hehe.

I'm amazed that you don't throw me away at early age, because everybody knows that I made no use to you. I'm lazy,never get anything right, yet you still loved me, and for that I'm more than grateful.

You know bu, there are many times I'm still hoping for you to be alive, seems like I and lil bro couldn't get used to it yet. I miss you bu. I keep remembering when you tried to woke me up by tapping my nose, and when I opened my eyes,you said :

"you have no idea how much I love you, don't you?"

 My eyes will got teary everytime I think or talk about you.

 However we've been trying our best to be ikhlas, because we really love you. May Allah bless us continuously and may us reunited in His jannah. Aamiin.

Being born as your daughter is one of the best blessing I received from Allah SWT. Alhamdulillahirabbil'alamin.

Thank you for patiently took care of me.

May Allah bless you and forgives your mistakes.

with so much love and prayers,

your only daughter :)

 

 

 

Their sweet condo,marriage life and other stories to tell :)

Assalamu'alaikum everyone..
I hope you're in the best condition of health and iman. Happy holiday.

It's semester break for me already. I have done my final exams, submitted my master thesis proposal, submitted all assignments, so the next task only to wait for my proposal screening schedule which somehow can be really unpredictable.
 Last week my brother was here,we got some quick escapades in Jakarta, then he left on Dec 25, and now I'm pretty much lonely and got nothing to do now.Ahem

Also last week, Bumen,Hanichu and I finally visited mbapika for the first time after she got married. Her condo is wayyyyy too far from my place,which means the distance is in our way to meet more often.
After being misguided by google maps, crossing the way which shouldn't be crossed,we're finally there. *feeling accomplished*

The condo is small yet very neat,clean and so mbapika. It reminds me a lot of our roommate era and when she stayed with Hanichu.
At glance,nothing really change. She's still mbapika we know, her laugh,her pouting face,her gestures,her habits,except for the baby bump in her belly,masyaAllah. Yes, insyaAllah we'll be aunties next year,alhamdulillah :)

What actually changed is that she's now having completely different life which is too complicated for my league. Ahheeee. I can't believe the roommate I once lived with,now talk and think about complicated things like their relationship as husband and wife, planning for future house,buying lands, her family financial planning, and how to raise baby of course,not to mention how she deals with her pregnancy. Which is really hard to catch,considering I'm still behaving like a kid,while my bestfriend literally will have a kid. OTL

Unfortunately, I forget to take a picture of her condo. I took a picture of Hani and Bumen instead.

They were imitating the bride and groom pose in their wedding photosoot,much to mbapika's chagrin x))))
also unfortunately,I don't have the original version and I couldn't take good picture because I was terribly shaking and awed seeing their pose,and it's turn out to be not that good, but they are cute,yes? :D


Alsooooooooo....talking about thesis now. I choose a topic based on my passion now. What's my passion? of course it's "early childhood education", then in what way it's related to financial management? well well, it's best to not reveal it until got the approval, I think.
And it's part of Bumen,Mbapika,Hanichu and my dream,actually. Hopefully the thesis will be useful for us in the future. aamiin...
Sooner,there'll be 'master thesis journal' tag in this blog, I suppose.

To end this post, let me be thankful about how Allah put me in Presuniv back then, to meet these wonderful people. I was really lucky. They are friends,partners, and older sisters to me at the same time. I miss them so much because we can't meet frequently unless we make serious planning like weeks before. Looking forward to meet them again.

For now,wassalamu'alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh :)

For mother I love the most...

it's been a while since I last updated this blog. My mom just passed away on June 21,2012 and no doubt it was the most painful memory I've ever had in my entire life. However,what I can do for her is sending my du'a and good amal, so that I still can make her smile,even when she's not physically exist beside me anymore,just like mbapika said. I am thankful for being born as her daughter,and I am always proud of her. She was,is,and will still be my everything.

"I'm so grateful for every moment I spent with you,'Cause I know life wont last forever. You went so soon,so soon" - So soon (Maher Zain)

If you know my mom in real life,recognize her, please forgive the mistakes she had done,may Allah bless you. 

anyway,if you have lost your parent(s) too, you can also read good articles about what you can do to your late parents here and here

Salam

Dear Maungs..

" Meski suatu hari kita tak bisa lg dekat secara fisik,ingatlah nama kita masing2 dalam stiap do'a yang terpanjat. Krn disana,kita dekat tanpa jarak."- Bumen

Now that we've graduated, and we walk our own path, we can't jump to each other like we used to..
Distance makes us apart, but we're close somehow...

Thank you for all the good memories, I must be very lucky to have friends like you..
I couldn't find any other words, simply because you're the best I ever have :)

I'm glad you came....